mr_lambi

new plan:
-practice music everyday and do open mics
-take guitar lessons
-join a choir
-try to turn the apartment into something cute and cool where people would like to hang out
-write even more music
-hang out more with people who live in the city
-go dancing
-save up to go to germany/poland/czech republic

today is going to be stressful and shitty again but i am looking forward to making the apartment awesome

i'm in my house for the last time. it's been a nightmare day but at least distracting. mom and rich didn't spend any time before the settlement packing so we had to pack up a 4 bedroom house in one day. the settlement is tomorrow at 11 and we're still not done.

i was so lucky to be seen off by pear and jamie and i spent my last day in london at the british museum by myself. pear made an amazing pork and apple pie, which was the perfect goodbye meal. courtney picked me up from the airport and she was the perfect person to be greeted by. i slept at martin's yesterday and i thought i could just get back into the swing of things but i am just not ready. i don't know if i will ever be.

right now my brain is in a simplistic binary of matthew-england good/martin-america wrong, regardless of logic or what's right. i have to really control myself in order to not email matt and ask him to consider coming to america in august like he had planned before we broke up. i'm homesick for england. i wasn't ready to go. it feels so wrong being here, not wrong like it did when it first got to england, but like an extreme regression, like i had given up any progress i had made in my life.

now i have to say goodbye to my house. i'm also not ready for that. i am so very, very tired. i didn't want to go back to my old life. i wanted my life to change completely, to stay in england and to plan for a life with someone. i guess the worst part is i feel i can trace it directly to just a few words i wish i had never said. and i was really foolish to think there'd be no interruption at all in my feelings, and that i could just erase the past 9 months and act like nothing had changed.

i know how lucky i actually am but i am not ready for all of this at once

I was so insanely tired after the weekend I've fallen down on my sketching. But to make it up to you, I present this splendid bear drawn for me at MECAF by splendid Ellen T. Crenshaw.  
 
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Splendid!

http://catandgirl.com/?p=4199

This chart was reprinted in here and I have a copy. So let’s give it away!

This is a three cassette reissue of the first three Kill Rock Stars comps and it even comes with a little walkman in case for some reason you don’t own a cassette player.

To enter: Leave a comment on this post and include your email address (it won’t be published). I’ll close comments and pick someone at random Monday May 27. Also: have a mailing address in the USA.

OK. Who wants cassettes?

I probably won't be able to get to a scanner until long after midnight tonight. I'd post my attempts at thumbnails for a new comic, but that would just be embarrassing.

Still trying to get from scattered thumbnails to an actual new comic. In the meanwhile I'll keep experimenting with media. (click to see larger)

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The ochre pencil is barely visible on the page, but it scans so darkly. This was just meant to be a light, loose sketch that I'd either ink or darken with the browner pencil later.

The sun rays have no particular meaning, they're just fun to draw.

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Another little Justa sketch here. But it's not meant to be today's sketch, it's from yesterday. Today's sketch remains still a mystery (to me).

Another yellow ochre/burnt ochre/turquoise blue experiment. It may be time to branch out into other combinations. Or maybe I'll fill this little sketchbook first.

When I'm home again, I'll scan it properly. But, see, I really did do some drawing at Starbuck's yesterday, even if I was too tired to finish and post.

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It's hard to work at the office with that dwarf brooding at me.

Update: The scanner's not working. Again. Ugh. ::kicks technology:: Here's the image again, scanned version.

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I had a long day today so probably won't get a sketch scanned tonight...

http://catandgirl.com/?p=4195

The Comics Chameleon app is here! Good for viewing your web comics in iPhone vision, and free. Srsly.

Above: Bill‘s eyePhone.

One little sketch of the day

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Just another little scribble.

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So now I can draw all of them. But can I make them move from panel to panel?

Just playing with the pencils again.

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Although it wasn't a very crowded or busy convention today, I didn't manage to do much drawing while there.

No new sketch today! It's almost midnight and all I have in the sketchbook is yet another Felix-in-uniform. Let's see if I can do two big pieces for tomorrow.